I don’t know these answers.

What or who is God?

I don’t know these answers. But, as I will reference God in my posts at times, it’s important for me to share with you what God means to me. 

I 100% completely and entirely believe there is a power greater than myself in this world, whom I choose to call God. (It just feels easier, and God knows — no pun intended — I already complicate everything else.) 

I am the type of person who believes in your God and my God and all gods. I respect all beliefs, all religions and all personal experiences. I will not judge you, and I will do my best to be open to what your beliefs have to teach me. 

I know the word “God” is tough, and I understand it has religious connotations that are hard to see past. I respect your feelings, but I don’t know how to describe my life or experiences without using the word “God.” 

There was a time in my life when I didn’t think it was possible to believe in God. Even until recently, I still truly believed I could run my life all on my own. I spent a lot of time trying to define God or trying to figure out which religion I was supposed to feel connected to or follow. Leave it to me to take the most simple, most holy thing and complicate it to the umpteenth degree. 

What I have learned from the trials and tribulations in my life, from the teachers that I have been blessed with and the unavoidable God moments I have experienced is that life for me feels a lot easier with a God of my understanding in it. It doesn’t have to work for you. That’s OK, and I’m not trying to change that. 

I just wanted you to know that when I talk about my God, I am talking about the divine, the all-knowing, the all-loving, the creator, the universe, the stars, the spirits, the love we see in each other, the random acts of kindness, the goodness in humanity, mercy, forgiveness and GRACE.

For me, God is not one particular thing or person or idea but a compilation that I choose to believe loves us all and is there for each and every one of us should we choose it. 

Hopefully, this makes the word “God” feel less ouchie or uncomfortable and instead offers a different, more gentle perspective. 

If not, that’s OK, too! I just wanted you to know where I was coming from.

Vulnerably yours … xoxo,
– H